Be okay..

I am a little a lost. The fog is dense and I cannot see clearly in front of me. And it's scary. In this dense, thick, and dark fog I find myself alone. Every once in a while as I am wondering aimlessly through, I find a hand to hold. But I cannot hold this hand forever, sometimes I have to let go. When I let go I feel this overwhelming sense of darkness and loneliness overcome me. However, I know the fog will lift and when it does the sun will shine upon me and once again it will kiss me. Whew, what a metaphor. But it's true.

I find myself in this town where I know only a few people, and am unemployed without a lot to do. During the day I try to fill my time, but days will pass when I have little to no social interaction. I am lucky for Tyler, but he is so busy I cannot rely on him all the time. It's hard, really hard. But it's also okay, something I am learning a lot from. Since I spend so much of my time alone I think a lot. I realize, I crave social interaction with people. I am used to close and many friendships. For the first time in my life, I am not busy, and without close friends. And it sucks. Period. It sucks. At least I realize this. And I know better than anyone that I hold the key to my own happiness, now all I need to do is something about it.

cheers.