se la vie..

You locked me in with those Siberian blue eyes the first day I laid eyes upon you, 3 and 1/2 years ago. You are my best friend, whom I love more than just about anyone. I don't know if you'll ever know, because I don't know if you deserve too. Or perhaps I am just too coward. Either way, it doesn't matter, I am always going to love you. And that's a fact. Completely unconditionally and even when I am dating other guys. You'll always be in the back of my mind. Like a favorite old book forgotten about and stashed away. But always pulled out and dusted off when down or lonely, as a simple reminder of just good it is. I like to pretend these feelings aren't real. But if they weren't real, then they would go away. However, they don't. They are here to stay. I feel lighter on my feet with you. I laugh like a child with you. We are there for each other no matter what. I know I can always count on you, to be at my side. To support when I am feeling crippled. You're my left foot and I believe I am yours.

Remember Michael Gavillot. I wrote this in my journal 3 years ago in New Zealand. Luckily, you'll always be some part of my life, so I don't just have to remember. Rather, I can build memories with you instead.