plague.

This is the black plague. It will destroy me. Luckily for me it does mean an eminent death it just means a set back and some serious self degradation. Every now and again I feel plagued with severe insecurity. It seems to appear from the mist, daunting me, hiding in the fog until the monster storms out and attacks.

Here it is again damn it. I would like to just completely LOVE myself. I don't know if I ever have. I have always been my own worst critic. I judge myself harshly against my actions, as well as other people. I've just come to realize this, but it is time to LOVE ME.

I have been thinking about this all week after I saw my friend Emily. She compliments me often, and I know I don't take these compliments to heart. Though, the compliments said are frequent and from various paople. I try to disregard them and wonder why some would think that about me. What a terrible, dreadful thing to think of oneself.

I have my faults, as anyone does. But I also have aplenty wonderful things to share. New goal: LOVE ME. Fall in love with myself.

Here is a list of things I have to offer: I have the ability to learn from pain and find reason to smile even in the most trying times.

I am a jack of trades and am knowledgeable at many things.

I am not afraid of change.

I take care of my body.

I forgive.

I laugh without holding back.

I am genuine.

I have a tremendous amount of COURAGE.

I am LOVED.

I LOVE with everything I have.

I am cute.

I make people smile.

My awkwardness is endearing.

I am all round a beautiful, funny, intelligent, and AWESOME lady.

And I mustn't forget that, because everyone should love themselves. First.

LOVE,

Me